I had at last found what was missing in my life and my life now had purpose and something to work towards. This is true of course, but I was so lacking in wisdom and guidance that I immediately set off on the wrong track – little realising that I need to do things the right way – His way!
This of course, is all very good and well, but yes of course there has to be a but, besides setting off on the wrong track, I made another big mistake at the same time. I was so busy trying to change others and pointing out their faults, that I neither knew nor even dreamt that God wanted to deal with me first! Ignorance is bliss – but no excuse!
You can imagine the kind of havoc I wreaked on those around me! Within a noticeably short space of time, I became the greatest finder of other people’s mistakes you could ever meet and from the base of complete ignorance of all things spiritual. I was a judgmental finger pointer extraordinaire! Needless to say, I didn’t go down too well with most people including my family!
My wife doesn’t suffer fools gladly, and in my ignorance that’s what I had become – a fool! I’m so glad she loves me with the love of the Lord! After causing the umpteenth argument in only a few months of being saved, I couldn’t understand why nobody was listening to me and why people went out of their way to avoid me. At this stage humility was definitely not one of my strong points.
No prizes for guessing who it was that finally shook me out of my personal crusade to change others and brought me down to earth with a crash. That’s right, Jacqui, my wife! Praise God for Jacqui. She lovingly sat me down and showed me this scripture:
That’s right God set me aside and drew me to salvation in Christ Jesus so that He could deal with me; refine me in the fire and get rid of the dross that bubbled out of me; so that He could send me out to do the good works that He had predestined me to do in the power of the Holy Spirit and to glorify His name!
I mistakenly thought that because I had accepted Jesus as my Lord and saviour I had suddenly, overnight become a spiritual giant. I didn’t realise that Christianity is a road that I had to walk on in total submission to God – a road to maturity that will never end! Not only did I have to give my life to Jesus, but I also had to surrender my will too him as well. I needed to follow these immortal words from my Lord himself.
I thought that because I was now saved and born-again that was it, free access through the pearly gates, job done. All I needed to do now was show other people what they were doing wrong.
I never knew that God now wanted me to change and build a personal relationship with him and be led for the rest of my life by His Word in the power of the Holy Spirit and to the glory of Jesus! I had no idea that there was a path to Christian maturity that I needed to follow every day and that God had a plan for my life that I needed to consult him about!
So, after my initial disastrous start at the beginning of my Christian walk, I learned a lesson that I will always carry with me - if I want to walk in maturity as a Christian, I need to allow the Holy Spirit to work on me and to change me so that I can be more and more conformed to Christ’s image. I have to work on the plank in my own I before I can even have a hope of helping my brother remove the speck of sawdust in his eye!
For me getting rid of the plank in my eye has been a long and oft time painful process and one that even today I have to keep my eye on so to speak. Remaining non judgmental is something I have to consciously work on as I work out my salvation with fear and trembling.
In the above verses from Philippians the Apostle Paul had the perfect formula for getting rid of the plank in my eye.
Work out your salvation by:
Cultivating it – tend it with regular doses of the Word and being obedient to it and water it with the continued infilling of the Holy Spirit.
Bring it to full effect by putting the Word into practice in my daily life.
Actively pursue spiritual maturity by humbling myself under God’s mighty hand.
Regularly evaluate myself using the Word as my plumbline and best practice standards, and above all be obedient to all it says and teaches!
- Recognise and give thanks to the Lord that it is only in his strength that I can progress to maturity and fulfil His purpose in my life.
- Actively pursue fellowship with Father, Son and Holy Spirit – live life in the Spirit as Jesus did.
- Ensure that my actions and speech always bring glory to Jesus and are always compliant with the Word!
- Build others up in Christ Jesus. Don’t gossip. If I can’t say anything to build up, then shut up – I’m talking about gossip here! God’s correction is designed to build up not break down!
At the time of my salvation, I considered myself to be a self-made man. I had a good job. I was well paid. I had a good position. I had a wonderful wife and family. I had done it all.
Yep! You are right I was the original “I”-specialist! I was so “I” orientated that I missed the plank in my eye! And along with the “I” specialist syndrome I carried a huge dose of self-pride!
Of course, God couldn’t leave me this way if I was going to be of any use to him as a true Christian. I’m so glad that Jacqui showed me Matthew 7:1-3. It wasn’t easy for her as I’ve mentioned I carried a huge dose of pride that was easily offended at first but the more the Holy Spirit worked on it the better I became. Thanks be to Jesus who gives me victory!
The answer to pride and stubbornness is:
After 34 years of walking this road I still slip but I have learned as well to be quick to repent and to say sorry.
The Christian walk carries many challenges with it. My wife and I have suffered much but the Lord brought us through the death of our eldest son who was killed in a hit and run motor accident when he was thirty one. The Lord brought me through a heart attack when I was just fifty one. We lost everything we had when our business collapsed with misappropriation of funds by our Christian business partners.
Thanks be to God; the Lord has brought us through these times and has restored everything the locust had eaten. Our God supplies all or needs!
Was it easy? No. Did I question God? Yes.
But these scriptures brought such comfort to us in all those times and still does to this day!
Let me leave you with these words from King David, a man after God’s own heart!
Prayer:
Lord, I pray that you would help me to humble myself under your mighty hand and that my spirit would remain teachable and compliant to your Word and the guidance of the Holy Spirit. I pray that you would help me to put the needs of others before my own and always seek to build others up in their faith and not break them down. I pray that you would put a guard on my tongue so that I will speak no evil that I may bring glory to the name of Jesus. Amen